PASSED!!

In the words of Ice cube, "Today was a good day"

haha well, for the most part!
I passed all of my employment exams ON THE FIRST TRY...That usually doesn't happen.  I have major test anxiety, but amazingly was the only one with no re takes! WOOHOO!! Boss asked me if I wanted to start Sunday but I wanted the weekend to recuperate and just relax, so I start next week sometime.

I'm really anxious but excited!

I did go out to eat tonight, we went to Hard Rock Cafe (HOT WAITER TOO - WOW! Tats, and bandana, and he touched me! AHHH) but I was good and had a veggie burger with a salad.  Dunno if i was within 400-600 calories though because I had a drink :-| but sorry, you can't take alcohol away from me!

it's okay, I just went hardcore at the gym for an hour.  I'm down to 208 right now.  My goal is to get to 200 by the end of March and my ultimate weight loss goal is 160 and that's the norm for my height and BMI.  I've gotta go back to eatin' healthier though and if we do go eat out, I have to stick with chicken or salad :| it may suck but it's what has to happen if I want to really make a change.  Tomorrow will be hard because it's Saturday, nothing to do and I will really want to sleep in, but I need to make sure I get up early, take my Ionix supreme shot and have my morning shake before I curl back in bed and go to back to sleep, but I fully intend to do so.

Quick note, Alex had an apt with his counselor today and we discussed the past behaviors, family history, etc and I have papers to fill out as does the teacher.  From the pamphlet that I have and the paperwork that I'm looking at, Alex most likely has ADHD.  I've been aware of that for a long time, but I'm glad it's finally being put out there for everyone in his life to see, so he can get the help he needs to lead a happier, more productive life.  His father is sort of on board, and he has to be because his son is suffering, and we all have to rally behind him to get him the help he needs.  No doubt in my mind he has all the symptoms of ADHD, and with proper counseling and guidance, and medication, I'm really hopeful he'll be able to turn his life around and make friends.  As it is right now he's barely able to make friends, and keep them, because he's doing thing that is pushing people away, and making it hard for him to maintain friendships, and not all of that is his fault.  He'll always be a bit of a loner, but he's also very smart and funny, and with medication I think he can curb some of those "Sneaky" and "deceptive" behaviors so he will be able to have good relationships with his friends, and not be the kid always left out.  It will make my heart hurt less to know that he's making good friends who want him around.  When a mother hears that her sons friends are speaking negative about him, it's HEART BREAKING and I'll do anything I can to make sure he's feeling good about himself, and he's making and KEEPING friends.  Time to hesitate is through, and I'm really hopeful he'll be on the right track, VERY SOON.  God knows this family needs it.  I'm always paranoid that he's so hyperactive that not even ADHD medication will help, and I can see him being the only child who sees no results LOL...but I hope it can work, and he can CALM down, and be able to live normally...That's all I want for him.

K, so, the quick note wasn't exactly quick, but it's good to get it out in the open.

I'll be back Sunday or Monday.  Sunday I start my next cleansing day! WOOHOO! So far cleansing days, Ionix supreme shots (MEGA ENERGY) and the snacks are my favorite part.  The shakes are growing on me and I'm going to buy some of the fruit to add to the shakes to spice it up a little!

Just gotta keep MOTIVATED and remember to stay away from the harmful foods, gluten, sugar, fats, red meat, grains, etc...So basically anything I've ever liked in the past LOL

OH well, beauty is pain, and I'm tired of looking in the mirror and hating what I see.  I want to watch my body slim down and be the best that I can be -- It's a rush to lose weight, and now I want to tone, and be healthy AND have energy, and feel good overall, and most importantly be free of harmful toxins.  Love knowing that my body is taken care of and maybe I'll live a long and healthy life after all :-)  Just gotta make it through these tough months when my stomach is grumbling and begging for foooooooooood! Time to find some alternative choices and step out of my comfort zone a little (IE Fish, Tofu, Quinoa, etc) and try some new things.

Color run is coming up and I'll be doing it with Cyell & Sarah I know those girls are hella fit, and I'd like to be able to keep up come run time! That'll be my 3rd 5k in 3 years and I'm doing 1-2 EVERY year! WOOHOO! Can't wait!

okay, me tired, and sleep is something I need WAY MORE of!

Tata for now

XO

Real quick...

Just wanted to post some new pictures that I took after day 1 and share some updates.

No big changes, but -6 lbs is a HUGE improvement! 

Orientation went really good... We watched videos, read handouts, and did quizzes.  I hate quizzes, but they weren't terrible.  Their policies are a LOT more laid back than rescare and they really seem to care about making sure the caregivers are comfortable, and that's a huge thing for me.  I had to endure a lot of uncomfortable situations in the past and they were adamant that isn't happening here.  I can't talk much about anything else, but today is the last day of orientation and we are doing hands on training so that should be fun ;) I'll hopefully find out when I'm starting work (Crossing my fingers its MONDAY so I can have a weekend to relax) and I'm just anxious to find out my schedule and meet my clients and get going...first few days are always the most nerve wracking.  But I'm keeping my head high and showing confidence!

Also, I went to the gym BY MYSELF!! :-D  There was nobody there when I first arrived so I hit the treadmill for about 20, halfway through some people showed up, but no biggie...I finished the treadmill, did some leg lifts, and worked on arms for about 15 minutes.  I came home to do my ab challenge (Leg lifts, planks(OUCH), and crunches) and felt REALLY sore afterwards.  Today I feel good, a little sore, but not bad.  I'm hoping to again tonight with Debi!  We talked about doing 3 days on 1 day off and I think that's a great idea! 

Crap, just looked at the clock - I'M LATE!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll catch up soon.
XOX

Week 1: -6lbs

YAY!! 6 lbs down!  I'm almost in shock, but hoping it continues.  It's just nice to be able to weigh in and see a few lbs gone.  Who am I kidding? 6 lbs is a LOT!  I'm down from 215-209!  I've finished 2 cleanse days (WHICH I FRIGGIN LOVE) and I've worked out two days in a ROW! haha... after a week or more of working out I'm hoping I'll have the courage to work out on my own, but right now it's nice to have such a great supporter in my corner.  I'll admit, the things going on at home are really trying to bring me down.  The stress at home is enough to make me binge eat until I gain all these lbs back, but I'm determined not to.  One more day until the end of February and then we're into March and it's only 2 more months until my mom gets here.  I'm really praying that everything works out and she can get up here, because selfishly I feel like she is my only option to get out of this situation.  I am in a situation where I'm feeling STUCK and I feel like there's no winning in this place.  Brian and Alex continue to butt heads and it's gotten so frustrating that I've given up on a lot of things.  #1. My house is turning into a tornado and I haven't been able to stop it.  I haven't had the motivation to clean the house in a long time, and when I finally do, it goes back to hell in a hand basket in one day.  I've been so focused on trying to keep going with Isagenix (Because when you've been eating like crap for 30 years, it's incredibly hard to stop cold turkey) and it's taken every ounce of will power not to fall on bad habits because times are tough.  #2. My positive attitude has been dwindling.  I'm usually a happy, smiling person who finds the good in everything, and lately I've been walking around with a doom and gloom attitude, and it's definitely in part because of the people around me.  It's really hard to stay positive when there's constant bickering, and nobody around here wants to smile, or have any fun. (Minus the kids once in awhile)
Here's my goal(s) for the immediate future, as in, right now.
#1. Continue with Isagenix, keep consistent and stay healthy (Drink lots of water, lots of healthy snacks, and keep cutting out toxic foods: fast food, red meat, pop, sugary drinks, etc)
#2. Start work!  Two days of training and exams and I need to walk in there with a good outlook, and stay positive, or I might as  well quit now.  I have a lot of work ahead of me and this job is NOT easy.  In fact, it's very very hard, and I need a positive attitude to be able to do it to the best of my ability.
#3. Get back to what makes me happy. IE: Kids, happy home, etc.  I have to get the house back to where it normally is, and get my sleep schedule back on track so I'm going to bed at a regular time, getting up early(ish), and maintaining the day... I want to take back control of my life.
#4. BE POSITIVE AND HAPPY.  The negatives are definitely outweighing the positives right now, but I can't forget what positives there are, and I need to stay POSITIVE.  I can't dwell on things that I can't change.  There are things that I want in my life that aren't working out, and I need to let those things go, and know that the future will work itself out if I let it happen, but those things that I can take control over, I need to grab by the horns and GO!  The negative energy in the house can suck a persons positive energy away, but I can't allow it to...or I'll get sucked back into a vortex I can't get out of.

So there are the immediate goals, goals that are easily attainable.  The last 3 I can work on TODAY, and I'll continue with Isagenix, because it's WORKING! And I finally feel like my healthy & wellness is finally changing for the better, and I finally have control over it
Okay, It's TRAINING DAY! So I gotta go make my shake, take a shower, and get ready to go! WISH ME LUCK!!


I'll post later tonight or tomorrow.

XOXO

Cleanse Day 1 (COMPLETE) Gym DAY 1 (COMPLETE)

Call that  WIN-WIN!!  I managed to make it through the first cleanse day with only minimal grumbling...lol...The snacks helped a lot, and so did the cleanse drinks.  I went to the gym with Debi (Cup scout mom and fellow camden resident) and we started slow with some tread mill.  I did some arms too.  Tomorrow we/re going longer... 1/2 hour on tread, 15 on hill climb, 15 on arms.  She's a great personal trainer! I'm 30 and shes in her 50's and she has way more energy than I do! Just shows how completely out of shape I am!! But after today, I feel good. I have new workout clothes (Which look HOT by the way) and once I lose that belly fat, and my arms are toned, and legs too..I know I'll be a completely different person.  What I need to work on now is finding a really good meal to eat during either dinner or lunch.  I'm thinking of doing some chicken, a salad, and fruit and maybe some edamame beans for protein. Haven't figured out veggies yet, but might pick up some v8 juice.  I'm going to save up and buy the Essentials package from Isagenix which is like 138$ which is basically a vitamin, but in the meantime I'm going to take a multivitamin daily.

I can't say I've really noticed a HUGE difference.  I don't feel much more energized yet, but today I actually woke up at 12am and haven't gone to bed yet -- I KNOW, crazy.  But tomorrow starts the beginning of the business in my life.  Eye appt tomorrow, and Thursday & Friday is training and if all goes well (Fingers crossed) I will be assigned a client next week.  I know what my self confidence needs. I need to be healthy, happy, and finally feel good about myself, and that will take hard work and perseverance, but it's about time I do something about it.

Day 2 of cleansing is tomorrow so I'm going to hit the sack early and HOPE & PRAY that I can get at least 6 hours.  I actually haven't gotten over 6 hours of sleep in about a year, so I really need to work on that, and I think working out definitely will.

I am going to push the ab challenge to tomorrow and work on it with Debi, she said she would help me because I'm going to need someone to count for me, and be my motivator when I want to quit.  So tomorrow night will be a very loaded day of work outs.  I'm going to print out the workout and keep it on my phone :)

Bon voyage for now!!

Oh I better weigh in...

YIKES
210! Down a few pounds!! I want to see that number drop..and drop...and drop! Just gotta keep ACTIVE!!!

It's going to take months, years, to be where I really want  to be, so I need to take each day ONE at a TIME.

Till tomorrow,
XOX

Tougher than it sounds!!

It's so much harder to actually follow through with something like Isagenix, than it is just to say it - and think it.  It's proving to be very difficult.  The 1st day wasn't so bad... I got through it, with minimal cravings.  But today is a cleanse day and unfortunately I slept through it.  My sleeping pattern has been pretty off kilter lately and I need to start going to bed at a decent time, and getting up early because Thursday I start Training for work @9am and after that I'm on full speed with work.  I start the GYM tomorrow with Debi and after that I'm hoping to go 3 times a week, AT LEAST.  We are starting with some cardio tomorrow.  (treadmill, uphill, etc) and tomorrow I'm starting a 24-day ab challenge.   I loved the 30 day challenge I did with Chantelle, and it really worked, so I need to get back into something like this.  Once I'm more active, I won't think about food, and I'll be able to give the program 100% .  Today I've fasted minus a few pieces of chicken and some snack wafers from Isagenix. Tomorrow I'm going to get up and do a deep cleanse and get back into the grove.

I have some new workout clothes I'm anxious to use!! Just need to get my sleeping schedule figured out so I can actually get up and ENJOY THE DAY!!!!!!!

I'm nervous about starting work, nervous about training, but I'm just going to go full speed ahead, no fear, and give it my all.

I hate not having control over my life and right now I'm in limbo - living in a situation that I'm not altogether comfortable with, and I'm excited to get my freedom back, to live by my rules and on my schedule, and when I can look around the house and NOT lose my shit because it's so messy (UGGhhhhhh men!! AND KIDS) then I know I'll be in a better frame of mind.  I just have to pull the motivation out from somewhere and GET ER' DONE.

Only 2 more days of freedom before things get hectic!! 

I'm glad I found Isagenix though, it takes the work out of finding food to eat, all I have to worry about is the 1 meal a day I have.  I miss binging, I won't lie.  I miss chowing down on nachos, or chicken, or tacos, and yes I can have them as my one meal a day, but no more eating until I'm full anymore - I eat to live, not live to eat.

Okay - here's the challenge, and it starts tomorrow...

Day 1: Isagenix

I'm reporting on my first day on Isagenix.  So far I've taken the Isagenix Ionic Supreme (at 8:30am) and instantly felt energy - almost too much! It kinda shocked my body a bit.  A LOT! haha, I had 8 oz of water, and I had my first shake at 10:00am.  The shakes consistency was pretty thick, and I didn't use a blender (ours is broken) So I shook with the 8 oz of water.  It was pretty thick, and wasn't very tasty, but not terrible.  I'm definitely going to do it blended as soon as I get a blender.

I'm about to go hop in the bath here soon and then around 11:30-45 I'll have my mid morning snack, then have my second shake around 1-1:30.  I'll have a low calorie dinner, probably a salad or soup or something.  I definitely feel a zinger of energy.  I also took the natural accelerator (For the metabolism) with my shake.

I'm going to do 50 crunches  this morning before my bath, and 50 more before bed.  Hoping to hit the gym either tonight or tomorrow.

I'll be back tonight to post more.

Starting Weight :112 (Which is actually about 2 lbs less than I was a week ago)

NO MOTIVATION!!!!!!

Where is the motivation?!  I'm a vampire.  Sleeping during the day and up all night.  I can't begin to describe the unrest that I'm feeling.  I am so ill at ease that I want to crawl out of my own skin.  I think I've realized that I've been so numb to what I haven't been getting, that when I feel for a second a connection with another human being, it awakens me to how long I've been "settling."   I can't really explain the feelings that are there, but I'm feeling a connection to someone - strong, and almost out of this world, and so UNBELIEVABLY FRUSTRATING that I want to burst.  This person is unattainable, and although we have a clear connection, and words have been spoken, I'm not "going there" and it's unnerving.  I've missed human connection.  A touch, a whispered endearment, a passionate embrace, a kiss, ANYTHING.   I've been in a loveless relationship for so long, and maintaining my monogamy because it isn't in me to cheat, or even think about it, but since we've broken up I've just thought about what I miss.  Butterflies, first dates, first kisses... In fact, I haven't even been on a real date before.  Never been courted, never had a silly one night stand.  NO, I've always jumped into relationships.  A good friend was right, she said I needed to work on me for awhile, stay single, find what makes ME happy - and she's right.  I know that.  But she's also been in my shoes and knows how hard it is to have been in a relationship for years without intimacy and what it can do to you.  It makes you think something is wrong with you, it makes you feel undesirable, and it hurts.  I just want to feel wanted.  I've felt it lately, and it's like a drug, and it's addicting.  I've had things come to light that may shock my family, and yet, I'm not ashamed of myself, or what I feel.  Feelings are feelings, no matter who its for.  But my friend is right, I need to work on myself and my happiness.

I slept in today and didn't do my shakes! I have to wake up early and start those, but I'm really hoping and praying that I can get some sleep tonight and get up early at least to get my shakes and pills out of the way, then go back to bed.  I have to go shopping for the chips for Alex's boy scouts ceremony tomorrow and he will be earning his Webelos badge, very exciting.

There's so much I want to say, and so much I'm feeling - and I just want to scream, at the top of my lungs, and cry, until I can't cry anymore... but I have to keep going...that's my only option. 

Being a rock is tough sometimes....

Slight detour...

Haven't started the Isagenix program YET - I start TOMORROW.  I had to get this house clean before I felt ready to start.  Cleaned out the kitchen, my products are all set up and I'm ready to go.  I'll be taking my weight and measurements tomorrow when I get up and then tracking my starting weight.  I will be posting every day on this program, until I feel confident that I'm on the right track.

So with that in mind -- SEEYA TOMORROW!!!!!

And just like that -- IT STARTS!!

In absolutely no time at all, My Isagenix products came!  I'd say I got a lot for my money, but that all depends on the results.  I've decided to start the products on Friday the 21st so I can give myself a chance to clean up the kitchen and get rid of all the tempting toxins!  I'm really nervous as I look at all of this stuff because even though I don't eat much at all, when I start a diet, or a lifestyle change, I always get hungry because I'm actually doing something about it.  I hope this time will be different.  I'm also starting the Isabody challenge which is for 30 days and has a cash reward, so I'm gonna start that Friday as well! Very exciting, and nerve wracking, but I'm ready!  I start work orientation next week and then after that it's full speed ahead on work.  Things have calmed down (somewhat) at the house and Brian and are sort of back to being civil again.  I obtained a lawyer for some of my collection accounts, explained the situation, and I'm pretty much challenging all of them.  I'm hoping to get at least one or two wiped off my record.  Really sucks that due to Brian's lack of paying bills, and lying about it, that I'm paying the price -- literally.  I can't even qualify for a CC to get my credit up right now, so I dunno what to do now.  Gonna see what these guys can do for me and then go from there.

Tomorrow I'm going to clean out the kitchen and clean the bathrooms, gotta take cinnamon to the vet, and then I start Isagenix and the challenge on Friday and I have to get measurements and get a calendar and then post pics to the website and go on with the challenge.  Not exactly thrilled about plastering my fat ass online but I hope it'll be worth it in the end ;)
Still trying to figure out some details on the challenge to make sure I qualify, doesn't look like it for some reason, but if not the Isabody challenge than I can do my own challenge :-) Just excited to get started

I'll be back on Friday to post about Day 1 of Isagenix! See ya then!!!

I'll be the first to admit, I don't follow through on much.  Just look at my previous blogs.  I started writing, started a diet, started a book, and never finished.  I have so many unfinished projects that need finished, that by the time I finish one, I will have been able to have finished all of them if I had had the control to complete something.

A lifestyle change is harder than anything I've ever witnessed.  People who are healthy, and fit, say it wasn't a diet that helped them, it was a complete different way of life, a lifestyle change.  Sure, you can diet and exercise until you lose 50 lbs, and you might be happy for awhile, but if you can't keep the weight off, and continue to live that healthy lifestyle, you are back to square one.

I do feel good about my finished challenges.  I really excelled with those.  I plan on starting another one soon.

I recently started talking to an old friend.  Well, really, he's my ex husbands old childhood friend, and as weird as that sounds, we're closer now than we've ever been (Not my ex, but even that relationship is probably the best its been, ever), but my ex's best friend. I know I'm just another one of many on his fast track to riches and prosperity, but if he can take me under his wing and I can do the same, I won't begrudge him any.

I don't know what made me feel that *THIS* was different, but something inside me says this is exactly the change I need.

It's called Isagenix.  Many call it a pyramid scheme, and I guess if you look at the process, it is, a pyramid so to speak.  You enroll, you bring two with you, they enroll two, and the process continues until you've earned free products, and thousands of dollars.  I believe him when he says he's making money, and I'm totally happy for him, but what instantly attracted me to this product was the "Meal replacement" appeal.  I don't eat right, period.  I usually skip breakfast, and most times lunch, and dinner is usually at a buffet, or brought home.  I've given up on home cooked meals, nobody in this house appreciates it, and anything that I make they don't like.  I'm putting my foot down on that one, and making myself a promise, and making a promise to my family.  We waste so much money and energy on eating out, and all we do is harm our bodies.  We eat so much CRAP and the toxins that are invading our bodies are slowly eating away at us, minute by minute.  I don't want to expose my kids to this anymore.   

My son, Alex, is being examined tomorrow by a physician and I am hoping to get some answers on his behavior.  A friend of mine, a mother of a cub scout that my son is friends with and goes to scouts with, agrees with me, that Alex exhibits clear signs of ADHD.   Our family has endured unrealistic behaviors, on all of our parts, and Alex deserves to live in a family that is mature, and safe, and right now we can't provide that to him without knowing what we are up against.  Alex has always danced to the beat of his own drum.  He's always had his own theme song.  I never really thought anything was wrong.  He was energetic, always on the go, never sat still.  He was up at 4am and went all day, never stopping.  I chalked it up to "boys will be boys".  It wasn't until he entered Kindergarten (after a smooth 2 years in preschool) that he started exhibiting some uneasy behavior.  Granted, his parents were divorced and he was experiencing the negatives of that divorce.  Going back and forth between us, and not wanting any of it.  He threw a tantrum every time we did our exchange.  Eventually he grew out of this, but it took years.  He was seen by a psychiatrist after 1st grade, when he had been seen by the principal in both Kindergarten and 1st grade for disruptive behavior and the inability to focus.  I still chalked it up to the divorce, and after a psychiatrist pretty much said it was us that needed to change, that we needed to keep in one place, and give him stability, we never pursued any ADD or ADHD testing. 

Fast forward 3 years and he's in 4th grade.  He had a great 2nd and 3rd grade year, even with more moving and family turmoil, but I think he outgrew the hatred of going to his dads, and learned to accept, somewhat, his fate.

I won't go into detail, but we are finally in Henderson, been here almost a year now in June, and he's reverting back to his bad behavior, ten fold.  His grades have slipped (although are slowly climbing) and he's realizing that the school system here is much harder (as am I) and he's having to focus, and work harder than ever.  We've struggled with daily meltdowns, arguments, fights, and it's contributed (but not the reason) for the break up of my relationship.  That's another can of worms I won't go into right now, but as a family we have decided to take action, and do what we should have done years ago, get Alex tested, and accept only the best, and only a result.   I won't accept, "NO" anymore.  Alex isn't able to perform to the best of his ability right now, and his illness is taking over.  I have no doubt he has ADHD.  I've researched, and researched, and he displays every symptom.  I want my boy to be free of those chains, and be able to live a normal, happy life.  He's said things that concern me, and I refuse to stand by and let him be unhappy.  

I have to be a better role model for my kids.  I want them to look up to me, and be proud of what I've accomplished.  I want it for myself.  I no longer want to hate my reflection in the mirror.

I have to follow through...

I have so many goals, however short-term, and I have to start checking them off my list.  Starting with myself, and my self worth.  I want to be healthy, completely free of inner body waste.  I'm tired of feeling weighed down by fat, and illness.  My body is sick, and it's lacking so many nutrients, that I'm probably harming my body every minute.

I broke promises to myself, I've slacked off on resolutions that I stuck with for over a year.  I need to reaffirm that commitment.

I may have relapsed, but everyone deserves another chance. I'm making promises to myself that I have to keep, not just for myself.

1) No more fast food (I did this for almost a year, and relapsed when things got tough.) I will not consume ANY fast food products (that includes Subway, Panda Express, etc)

2) NO MORE POP! (I made it three months and relapsed) No more pop allowed in the house.  I have to do everything I can to get Brian on board.  (Juice, tea, water, milk, etc OK)

3) 2 shakes and 1 regular meal EVERY DAY.  NO EXCUSES (This product Isagenix gives me a healthy and beneficial shake for breakfast and lunch which are the two main  meals that I  miss) and my dinner will be healthy, but not unreasonable.  I can't give myself unreasonable expectations that I will soon find hard to resist.

4) EXERCISE - BUT HAVE FUN!  I will NEVER be a gym addict.  I'll never do crossfit, but I can be healthy.  I'd love to start going to our FREE gym, and there's also our pool that is great for cardio.  I want to start walking around the complex, and I want to eventually get a bike and do family bike rides) I'd love to start hiking, and using weekends as a way to be active.

5) NO SUGAR!!  This house is too consumed with snacks that are high in sugar.  The kids should stop drinking capri suns, and instead we need to find a healthy alternative, whether it be water or low sugar juice.  No more candy. This house is plagued with candy, cookies, and sweets.  I'm not saying I want to completely rid the house of treats, but they can be low sugar or no sugar.  Low fat frozen yogurt is an option.  Alex would also benefit from this.  This includes high sugar containing chips as well.  The kids may be upset at first, but this will only help them in the long run.

6) FULL FAMILY COOPERATION.  I'm calling a family meeting tonight, after Alex is home, to discuss this with everyone.  Brian is sick (will discuss later) and he needs to get with the program.  He has to take his life seriously, and as a family we have to make the right decisions together.  All of us have to be on the same page.  Brian is actually the one I worry most about.  He is going to kick and scream, but I will plead with him to do this, because his life literally depends on it.

7) FINALLY, FOLLOW THROUGH.  I'm 30 years old,. and not getting any younger.  I am 31 in May, so I'm giving myself until May 26th to have completed the following goals.

1) Start on the above 7. (21 days becomes a habit, plenty of time to start these goals)

2) Lose at LEAST 5 lbs (that gives me all of April and most of May to lose 5 lbs - or more)

3) Get on the road to a healthy lifestyle change - for all of us.  

I'm posting a before picture, and I will post an after picture on May 26th.  

According to my scale, I'm at 215 right now.  I certainly don't feel 215 or look it, but I believe it's close to that.  I'd like to lose at least 50 lbs in a year, and that brings me down to 165 which I've researched is perfect for my height and body.  I'm hoping to lost at least 5 lbs a month, but I know 3-5 is the norm.  I'll blog as soon as I receive the products, and try to keep blogging daily after that, to keep track of my progress.  I may be back to blog about other things as many things are changing right now, and writing is a great outlet.

The time is now......I hope it isn't another empty promise.