YAY!! 6 lbs down! I'm almost in shock, but hoping it continues. It's just nice to be able to weigh in and see a few lbs gone. Who am I kidding? 6 lbs is a LOT! I'm down from 215-209! I've finished 2 cleanse days (WHICH I FRIGGIN LOVE) and I've worked out two days in a ROW! haha... after a week or more of working out I'm hoping I'll have the courage to work out on my own, but right now it's nice to have such a great supporter in my corner. I'll admit, the things going on at home are really trying to bring me down. The stress at home is enough to make me binge eat until I gain all these lbs back, but I'm determined not to. One more day until the end of February and then we're into March and it's only 2 more months until my mom gets here. I'm really praying that everything works out and she can get up here, because selfishly I feel like she is my only option to get out of this situation. I am in a situation where I'm feeling STUCK and I feel like there's no winning in this place. Brian and Alex continue to butt heads and it's gotten so frustrating that I've given up on a lot of things. #1. My house is turning into a tornado and I haven't been able to stop it. I haven't had the motivation to clean the house in a long time, and when I finally do, it goes back to hell in a hand basket in one day. I've been so focused on trying to keep going with Isagenix (Because when you've been eating like crap for 30 years, it's incredibly hard to stop cold turkey) and it's taken every ounce of will power not to fall on bad habits because times are tough. #2. My positive attitude has been dwindling. I'm usually a happy, smiling person who finds the good in everything, and lately I've been walking around with a doom and gloom attitude, and it's definitely in part because of the people around me. It's really hard to stay positive when there's constant bickering, and nobody around here wants to smile, or have any fun. (Minus the kids once in awhile)
Here's my goal(s) for the immediate future, as in, right now.
#1. Continue with Isagenix, keep consistent and stay healthy (Drink lots of water, lots of healthy snacks, and keep cutting out toxic foods: fast food, red meat, pop, sugary drinks, etc)
#2. Start work! Two days of training and exams and I need to walk in there with a good outlook, and stay positive, or I might as well quit now. I have a lot of work ahead of me and this job is NOT easy. In fact, it's very very hard, and I need a positive attitude to be able to do it to the best of my ability.
#3. Get back to what makes me happy. IE: Kids, happy home, etc. I have to get the house back to where it normally is, and get my sleep schedule back on track so I'm going to bed at a regular time, getting up early(ish), and maintaining the day... I want to take back control of my life.
#4. BE POSITIVE AND HAPPY. The negatives are definitely outweighing the positives right now, but I can't forget what positives there are, and I need to stay POSITIVE. I can't dwell on things that I can't change. There are things that I want in my life that aren't working out, and I need to let those things go, and know that the future will work itself out if I let it happen, but those things that I can take control over, I need to grab by the horns and GO! The negative energy in the house can suck a persons positive energy away, but I can't allow it to...or I'll get sucked back into a vortex I can't get out of.
So there are the immediate goals, goals that are easily attainable. The last 3 I can work on TODAY, and I'll continue with Isagenix, because it's WORKING! And I finally feel like my healthy & wellness is finally changing for the better, and I finally have control over it
Okay, It's TRAINING DAY! So I gotta go make my shake, take a shower, and get ready to go! WISH ME LUCK!!
I'll post later tonight or tomorrow.
XOXO
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